Jagged Edges

I feel a mood that makes me crazy
It rushes to my brain, then to my heart with pure ecstacy
I went to your house last night and found you lying in bed
With another person I shall not reveal his name
Why torture me with your empathy, while it is clear you wish me gone
The night s have been the hardest to get you out of my mind
Your cool ways you do what you do, your cigarette hanging from your mouth
The way you walk in a mucho way, and wink at me from afar
This feeling I have for you is tearing me apart
Jagged edges of pain in my womb
Please tell me this is not the end, cause I found out I am pregnant. with your kid
It doesnt have to be this way, but I don't have anymore to say
I can't believe I am thinking of abortion
But afterall I am only seventeen
This time I might go through with it, afterall it is my body
Not yours that feels this knife of dispare for someone who doestn't care
Not sure right now but when I am, I will write you a note
And my parents too, then the blood will pour out onto the paper 
As I am suicidal, this jagged edge of a razor slits my wrists
And a pool of bood is my memory