Jazmyn

forgive me please .. I am not there .. 
forgive me please I had to find my feet ..
oh I know how you do not understand 
but honestly darlin neither do I ..
I had to find some kind of strength for you to not see ... how this illness tried to get the best of me ... forgive me please jazmyn ... when I say this from the very heart  , on how you touch my soul ... I tried soo hard not to let go ... how can you shine when my heads crumbled and shrivelled to shreds ?? how can you smile when you see my falling tear ?? No knowing what to say on how I truly felt and what really goes on ... oh how I don’t want to trouble you sweet dear little head jazmyn ..