love is my medicine

my soul’s crawling walls, 
she’s running wild with her thoughts ...
they blamed her they played me , oh god ..I feel distraught ... years past and so I lost ..
i keep remembering my faults , not listening 
And Every time my living enemy  I come across they taunt I crumble silently and remember what I’ve got , i cant see 
I can’t feel ..nothing’s amazing .. ironically u made me turn to the night where I see this blade glistening ...
trying soo hard not to cave  ..please  ,
somebody please save me ..
i lost my little baby I couldn’t even put it in the grave you see ... this is the future barrier I just overcome ...
this weight is bringing me down .. and Im sure ain’t hell the only one ...
 these words speak from my mouth that I cannot speak ... or how I feel the urge to  need to learn to read , what is actually coming out in my hand and what seems to repeat when i is weak ... I understand to feel the urge of need to feel the love that I need when  I surrender my pain upon   The Cold shredded sheet ... not realiseing I push away the people close to me ... I get so stubborn thinking I can over come what I can’t on my own now I see ... my love is the medicine