Journey Within

Black sheep of the family,
I never fit in. 
Loud as an adult,
Silenced as a kid.
Never got a good sense of self,
Created different versions to cope.
Continued to pray,
Never lost hope.
Questioned my belief system,
Religion to my core,
Set out on a Journey,
Searching for more.
Took a final look at my past,
Said, goodbye 
Striked a match,
Set it on fire,
Flames grew fast.
Burned everything bridge that lead me here,
Walked bravely into the darkness,
That I once feared.
Phoenix rise front the ashes.
That's what I will do,
Create my own compass,
To myself I'll stay true .
I'll rise from the ashes,
Wearing my lessons as war paint,
For the whole world to see .
No longer seeking approval,
I am the only one who validates, me.
Trials of yesterday ,
Become testimonials today.
Prayed for guidance,
Carved my own way.
Inner child needed healing,
Had to face the pain I ran from as a kid.
I needed  to feel safe for once,
As a child I never did.
I stepped into the darkness,
Brought my shadows into the light.
Survivor not victim,
I came prepared for a fight.
Faced all of my demons,
There's nothing left to fear.
 Spiritual death,
Grim reaper is here.
My inner child is healed,
Trauma resolved,
Past put to rest 
Overcame every challenge,
Every obstacle.
I passed the test.
Rebirth on the horizon,
Time for a change and it's coming in fast,
Mistakes, 
Not patterns .
Lessons learned,
Mindful of what I have done in the past.
Became my authentic self.
Healed from my past,
Never lose your faith and hard times won't last.
Never again will I be silent.
Screaming for the world to hear,
IN hopes my story inspires you to face your fears.

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