Judgement day is neigh...

16/11/2021
Judgement day is neigh
My mind,
My mind could explode.
I can’t think straight.
Dry mouth,
Eyes down.
As I’m now going to have to face my demons,
Head on.
No glancing back,
No second try.
Just as long as the truth is out there at last,
Laid bare.
No more hidden depths of despair.
No more wondering how I know things
My speech is void of words.
Stomach churning.
Like I could throw up.
Standing too attention,
Is my bodies,
Every hair.
Stood in the spotlight,
Sat on an abused,
Overused,
Interview room sofa,
Not chair.
Taking my warped mind back to the early 90s’,
Reliving,
Today.
Really?
I’ve actually got to go back there?
Describing in detail,
How she lured me to my bathroom,
Her lair.
6 times I can remember.
Her teaching me to touch here,
There,
On her,
Everywhere!
Performing sex acts of a lurid nature.
Teaching me cunnilingus ,
Whilst she’s stripped half bare.
I can remember the taste on the tip of my tongue
Even the smell of her scraggy,
Unkempt,
 Pubic hair.
They’ve got me digging,
so deep in my mind.
It’s stomach churning,
As The deeper I go,
The more I find.
Its like that summers day,
When my thoughts were jolted.
Making me come to a halt,
A grind.
Like a lightening strike.
Not a light bulb,
Not hitting another being,
Only frazzling,
This brain of mine!