Just Enough To Hurt
In a conversation I had with a poet on this site by the name of "Curious Onlooker" these were his words (mostly), they were so profound but he wouldn't post it so I will in his stead in a revised version haha I hope you enjoy.
Like 1 Pin it 0I'm 22 with no clue
Were that I could
Walk the same walk as everyone else
To some miNUTE degree I would
But I feel it all, I see it all
And yet still to my despair
I don't retain it all
Just enough to keep me mad
And this is why I'm not the same
I'm always some curious onlooker
Observing closely yet not close enough
To be a part of the world
I was never cut from the same cloth
And that'll forever be a knife
In my chest, pushing into my heart
But not deep enough to kill me
Just enough to keep me alive
And wanting
I've never had friends,
I've never had family
And now I'll never have peace
For as long as I live I'll remain
But a fraction not enough to be whole
Just enough to be there
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Comments
"Not cut from the same cloth"
I too feel so confused. I don't get how life works. How is it people find more money than me yet don't seem to be doing any harder work than me? I've tried working harder; didn't work. I've tried working smarter; also didn't work. I don't smoke, drink, gamble or run a car... still their bank accounts are full while mine is empty. I desperately crave to be a generous soul but animals don't want to eat the food I offer and humans reject my gifts. I love my son yet life took him from me, while they neglect and abuse their kids and still get to keep them--why?
LOL - all I see is chaos making no rational sense
I get it. I totally get the onlooker.
Sometimes I think there is a karmic dharma system and I was born to be a priest (totally dependent like a baby on the system and not own riches). I think it's meant to be a blessing but often it feels like a curse.