Just one more slit

"Just one more slit and it's all over",death whispers in my ear, Enchantment is a sweet seduction 
Staring down, at the scars.

My once precious life, now slips away. My cries dry up in my eyes because there is no peace in my mind, no peace in my world.

Anger and rage consumes me, the demons within now bursting to be released.The walls of my cage finally cave,"Just be still, just be brave".

"Forget this fear, forget my lie" 
Blood drips down my arm, my senses tell me one more cut and there will be no real pain. A Calmness comes over me, this is my last attempt it as to be.

"Everyone we bullied me or pushed me around , are the reason I have become this monster" but the very same people who put me in this are the ones that will miss me the most. Tears stream down my cheek, 

My head feels heavy, I get dizzy and legs go weak 
Darkness surrounds me, I get a glimpse of the abyss 
I embrace the darkness, then hear a shriek... 

Then nothing.... Blankness, no sound 
I feel my body drifting 
I hear scraping, something's stirring around 

Surrounding me, I can hear the creatures shifting, I hear the scream and the moaning. I want my family, I'm all alone 

I hear cry, And realize it's my own 
I know I have sinned, still I pray to god 
"Please get me out of this hell" 
I start to yell... 

No sound out my mouth, only in my mind. No one to help me, no one for me to find 

I've never felt so scared.... My soul finally screamed and despaired 
"I give up..." 

A light??? No is my consciousness returning to bright my crumbling life. I feel myself falling, a faint far away voice, I hear it,

A gentle someone calling out at me,
I walk towards the voice not knowing where it might lead me but
I feel myself escaping from this hell.

Has it been years or months since I have been stuck in this prison trapped with nothing but my fears. 

I open my eyes, and look around 
I'm lying in a hospital bed. The worried looks on their faces makes me ashamed 

Sitting and staring no one makes a sound, "Sorry" is all I say... 
Mother starts crying, my farther is sad, finding me like that, must have been bad... 

I get a kiss and a cuddle, a pat from my father, my minds in a muddle. I still manage a small smile, 
And close my eyes for a while, 

I promise myself, from this day on and till I die 
I'm going to be the best person I can, or at least a can try.

"Live everyday like it's the last" 
Forget all the bad days, I'm leaving them in the past 

The sun is shining, my dark clouds have vanished 
My demons have gone, finally banished 

Life is good, life is great, 
Forget wallowing in self pity 
I tell you, straight.