JUST TO BE ME

It's hard to be free
Just to be me
Trying to live
Just trying to be
Why do I care
Sometimes, I'm not there
I can't breathe
I can't breathe my own air 
I wonder where I am
Am I ten feet under
Still fighting to live
Though I've fallen asunder 
Has no one told me
That I've been long dead
That I'm not among the living 
I'm just reliving the dread
No! I am alive, Don't bury me
I just don't know how to live
How to breathe life into living
How to keep loving, keep forgiving