Keeping the faith

 
I cry today when I was alone
because I was feeling sad
I wanted to be happy, I really did
but Still, I was feeling sad

I reach deep into my heart
where happiness once live
But it was not there again
It moved out a long time ago

So, what can I do now
With this Sadness that’s hovering around
when happiness seems like a traveling illusion
Getting further and further away

I've learned how to fake my smiles
Just like a movie star
And if they put me in the categories
Then kaz ishmael will surely win an Oscar

You see, I never let anyone know how I feel
Or do I share what's important to my heart
Because people will pretend to care
And then use that information against you

So, I pray to God, in the corner of my room
And I pleaded for him to show me the light
Then I smile in front of the world
Pretending that everything is alright

You know? I never really care for anything
Material possessions can be broken and replace
But the reason that I cry today and I was feeling sad
Is because I miss seeing the smile that was once on my little boy’s face

Keeping the faith
Has always been my comforting hope
Keeping the faith, was my go to zone
When I felt like tying the rope

I remember when I use to happy
But that was so long ago
Now when I look back at that time
It seems like if it was a picture show
 
What is more beautiful in life
Then your baby's smile
What else could bring you joy in life
Other than being there for your child

and when your child is sad
although you have tried your best
And you don’t see that smile
Then you feel like you have failed the test
 
You have failed to protect them
And your best was not good enough
So that’s why I cry today
But I remember when it uses to be tears of joy
 
We can’t see what is going to happen
We don’t get the liberty of seeing into tomorrow
And sometimes bring children in this world with such joy
Not knowing they would face sickness, pain, and sorrow
 
But I know that life is long
And there is still time for a miracle
That one day my sadness could disappear
And my happiness would return to me once more