Learning Me

All my life I've done so wrong

Here are my confessions in this song

The truth is I've been lying to myself

About the feelings that I've felt

My guilt has found resurrection

Digging up my confessions

The truth is I made an excuse

My lie to reason for my abuse

The truth is I blamed some one else

My way of hiding from myself

The truth is I twisted reality

With my views of rationality

The truth is I've put on an act for the world to see

So the world wouldn't see the psycho in me

I've analyzed my insanity

Define normal before you call me crazy

My mind is like a hurricane

Rapid, spiraling, destructive thoughts that drive me insane

It's time for me to come clean

For the real me to be seen

I've reached down deep inside

In the darkness where I hide

I've been hiding the monsters of my past

Unleashing the monsters that haunt me at last

The beast of my nightmares

The beast that whispers that no one cares

I've been haunted by trauma of painful memories

The evil words and actions of my enemies 

The ones I trusted into my life

Turned my back and gave them the knife

Now I'm callused from consequences of my mistakes

Hit the ground running what ever it takes

My confession is I'm trying to change my path

Tired of living under karma's wrath 

I've learned insanity is an unchanged mind

Now it's time to leave that life behind 

Looking forward, I'm not looking back

I'll be ready when my monsters attack

Armed with my repentance

Ridding my monsters from existence

My world feels so much lighter

Life can't beat me, I'm a fighter

I'm still alive and doing well

Facing Heaven and not Hell

My story will go on with my confessions

Fighting hard to concur my regressions

No one knows what I've been through

I don't know what you've been through

That's not what we know, That's what we knew