Letter To Myself

Dear Me

Your eyes are full of sadness
Your heart is full of pain
How did you let yourself feel this way again? 

Remember the days when you were happy?
The days when things were fun? How free you were internally
When your spirit was filled with sun

You spent years building yourself up
Why did you let others break you down?
Where is my happy go lucky girl?
Where is my class clown?

Now the image in the mirror
Is someone i don't understand
Someone whose become so boring
Whose allowed herself to become so bland

You can't even think nice things of yourself 
Your head Is filled with dark words
I can't blame you for all of this thinking
Because for years this is all you've heard

How dare you let others talk to you this way
How dare you allow it to get worse
How dare you put up with being treated less then you deserve

But that is the forgiving girl I know
Always giving and never taking
Being used and abused by all who ask of her
And little by little she begins breaking

I am saddend by your lack of self-esteem, 
I am hurt that this is who I see
When I look back at the best time in our life, things were still missing, but at least I had the whole me!

And now your at the bottom again
Lying their looking at the long climb back up
But I believe in you baby girl
Today lets start filling this cup

Do not be dis-heartened by where you failed
you have been this low before
But now we are going to get in this boat 
and start rowing until we reach the shore

You are going on a journey to find yourself
letting go of all the pain that you bore
i am not a woman who will be taken advantage of anymore

We will fight for our happiness
we will reach until we've won
we will try and never give up
Until our whole life is again filled with sun 

I miss you. 

Love Me.