Joker
I lied so please dont cry,
Everyday i was high, popping the pills, hoping i die, burn myself multiple times.
Use to come up to you, hiding the truth. Covering myself up, you didnt have a clue. Am i the evil guy for not telling you.
This has being going on all my life, when im depressed i go get my knife. Cut myself deep inside to release the pain in my mind. i kept it well hid, Trying not to lift the lid. Praying i die while faking joy. My eyes gave it away but you choosen not to say.
A broken man crying for help, lying about hurting himself. Man who has problems he couldnt solve. My heart is lost on this earth. Feeling like im nothing but dirt. Who has no self worth.
I wanted to tell you when your laided on my chest. But i wanted you to rest.
Life is a like a constant test. CONSTANT struggle feels like im drowning in a bottomless puddle. Wondering if i am i curse. When will it be my time in the hearse. i lost all hope and days i cant cope.
So i lie put on a fake smile. Doctor`s keep writing on his file. Take more pills you`ll be fine. No one sees my lies and the hurt deep inside. Its like the joker has taken over my mind. One step at a time.
I can hear him calling my name. Saying "are u there, its time to play a game". Wondering will i let the voice take over and win. I dont think i have a choice. Lets rejoice by putting a smile on your face. To be the main showcase.
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Nice!!
Will be easier to read if you make some paragraphs :)
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