Live,Conquer,Die

She told me one day I will be able to believe in myself but I didn’t think that day would come.

I still don’t think that day will come.

I think of myself the same negative ways I did before.

My thought process about myself hasn’t change the only thing that has is the people around me.

The friendships I thought would last for a long time had an expiration date.

From the people who knew me inside out and the people who I thought would be in my new chapters.

From the girl who I saw as my best friend to the girl who I saw as a potential girlfriend, they all faded.

As I sit here now writing this I begin to realize that even with the thought process of the way I see myself, the way I see the future being negative life does go on.

I see my end coming to an end soon but im going to enjoy it while it last.

If it is finding thrills at the top of roller coasters, and swinging from 153 feet from the ground at more than 100/km an hour I will find happiness.

What the future holds is a mystery but I got a bucket list of potential things.

Travel to foreign lands, dive from the highest points I want to experience the world.

I don’t know the remedy for low self-esteem and depression.

But a damn good way to beat it is to conquer the world.

What do you want to do?

(Please comment I do want to hear what you all want to experience)