living a lie

How many times
Do you have to fuck up
Before you became a fuck up?
As I look back On my life
I just want to give up
I want to quit trying
Even though there's no tears
Doesn't mean I'm not crying
Can you tell its fake when
I put a smile on my face
Dread of living in this place
Disappointed when I wake
Going to be another day
That I already know I hate
I know that's not right
But I'm tired of this fight
Not alone but still lonely
Know where I've been
Don't know where I'm going
The thoughts that I think
Terrorize my mind all the time
Will tell you I'm alright
But really I'm not fine
Wont take my life
But wish I would die
So tired of living in a lie

Living a lie
Everyday of my life
Will tell you fine
But I'm not alright
Won't take my own life
Even though I want to die
Just tired of living a lie