Locked In A Jar

I’m feeling alone, maybe lost, my feelings are locked in a jar
If only you could see, or hear, the damage you’re doing from afar
My life was simple, it wasn’t the greatest but it was fair
I wish you’d realize how much I need you, but I know you don’t care
You’ve left me once again, to defend myself, to be locked in a jar
You’ve caused me pain that left a mental scar
You’ve left me in a state of mind that no one else can fix
I’ve tried and tried to let you go, but somehow, I’m still fooled by your tricks
I am a product of your seed, something you helped create
Without you in my life, I’m not sure of my destiny or my fate
I’m locked in a jar, and you can’t see me without seeing yourself
That’s why you ran away, that’s why I hurt so bad within myself
I need to know what’s going on inside your mind
Because you were there at one point, and now you’re gone, you’re so unkind
You might have won at forever hurting me 
But you haven’t won at keeping me locked away 
Because there will come a day, where I will be set free
And when that day comes, you’d wish you decided to stay
I’m locked in a jar for now, but that won’t last forever
Because loving you without you around is cruel 
Every time I think of you I think “NEVER”
I’m done letting you hurt me, I’m done being the fool.

Stephanie Davis
May 2021