Lonely

Lonely

Always the same
 is how it feels. 
Like a pack of wolves 
snapping at my heels.

Chased and withered
 by battering gales
Butterfly effect
 everyone fails.

Mind and body
 all bludgeoned inside
Too late now 
nowhere to hide.

The weight on my shoulders
 pulling me down.
Always in last 
never offered the crown.

Slip slide and doodle
 we travel through life
I have the cuts
and I hold the knife.

Remembering good times
 that hang in the air.
No pulse in my mind
and I just don’t  care.

Death by jury 
in my personal case
Denial  of self worth 
is a lonely place.

Need only one person
To hold my hand
But slips through my fingers 
Mirage in the sand.

Struggling daily
To make any sense
My life is a sham
Full of pretence. 

Close to the end now
Does nobody care 
Raise hand for help
But I never do dare.