Lost in Darkness

Overwhelming darkness consumes my soul 
Wondering when there will be a light 
at the end of the tunnel 
A voice in my head says: never more 
Fearing every breath may be my last 
I become withdrawn and confused 
Easily irratated I lash out at everyone 
While I cry uncontrollably on the inside 
No one can understand the pain I feel 
No one can understand my pain is real 
I want to do better, I want to change 
Not really knowing how to end this pain 
Where did I go wrong I think to myself everyday, minute, hour 
Hoping everyday that people understand 
My pain is real 
Engrained in the fiber of my being 
Darkness consumes my soul 
This is just who I am!! 
How can this be?
Please don't let faith have this judgement 
upon this soul of mine
Because I can feel darkness consuming 
this soul of mine