Lots Of Pain

I can remember the first time I cried
How I wiped my tears away and buried the pain so deep inside
All of my memories good and bad that's passed 
Didn't even take the time to realize 
Because I'm waiting for it all to come to an end
I still curl up right in my bed
Because it is taking over my head all over again
Don't even know who you are
I guess I'm still trying to find out 
I can't tell anymore
Lying awake every night
Constantly pushing the world aside 
I don't want to feel the pain again
I don't even want to try
Nothing is ever enough or what it may seem
I'm wondering how I really feel
I'm just a lonely girl
Telling a sad tale 
Because I'm trying to make my dream man come true
I thought I found him, but he wasn't true

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