love tragedy

It was the first time of my life i saw someone die, the first time in my life i wanted to cry. To see is eyes roll up and down with the swelling of his head and his body on the ground.

I felt so weak, i couldn't speak, its like i was dragged in hell with  vengeance of heat. He called my name but i stand still, i couldn't move cause i was afraid to get kill.

But little did i know what he wanted to say, he wanted to say i love you but i was just too afraid. I blame myself upon this very day, so i cut my wrist and stay where i lay, but its o.k cause i will see him there, the most greatest thing i could ever fear.

To face him again, what would i say? what would i do? will he forgive me and ask to join him too. He suffered because i was a coward, so i shall make make it up to him, but i hope that he can forgive me and chose my faith  from  a part within.