Loved And Lost

It's raining,
and I'm drowning.
Just soaking it all up,
with not a care in the world 
if somebody found me.
Just staring at the sky,
the dark stormy clouds.
Feeling the rain on my skin,
watching the lightning,
and hearing it's sound.
The wind when it screeches,
passing my skin as it flies.
The cold that meets us,
and freezes the tears we cry.
Suddenly it's hit me,
It's not rain; it's my tears.
Knowing that you regret
that you ever kissed me,
and spent any time with me,
and I question still,
If you ever once missed me.
Because I miss you,
and it's become an issue.
Nothing can dry away my tears,
no amounts of wipes and tissues.
Why did you let me kiss you,
or hold you when I was with you?
I miss that feeling,
but you broke me in two.
And you let me continue bleeding,
and ran away from the truth.
You left me alone with my tears,
and never thought once 
whether I was still breathing...
I gave you it all,
and I was always there
after a minute of your call.
I had always cared,
but you still let me fall.
I mean nothing.
I was nothing.
You broke my heart,
it was just your toy.
I was just another boy,
to play with until
you found your shining star.
So you let me fall and break,
cause you had just found,
a better looking guy and mate,
and felt so boastful and proud.
But when he broke your heart,
and when he had cheated,
you remembered who you are,
who you were when 
I was the reason you had feelings.
You realised your mistake,
and hoped that I was still there.
In the place you left me to break,
praying that I still cared.
But I'm not there,
I can no longer care,
because all that is there...
are the pieces of my broken heart.