Me

i lie here in my bed and often i feel

i have done all ive said and i feel im not real   

i lie here wondering for why it is me 

and i wonder why it is i can not  be free

i hurt and i ache and i feel constant pain

i often wonder for what i will gain 

see im so tired now and i want to be free 

but i dont know how i dont know me

see i write this poem for all to see 

but all i want is just to be me 

but who is me i ask myself 

for i no longer know who is herself

see all i want is to be loved and to love 

but if feel the forces coming down from above 

maybe its not meant for me 

maybe it was never meant to be 

i feel a whole in my soul and i want to feel whole 

but something inside has this strong hold

i want to let and i want to be free 

my fear is over the years ive lost the one thats me