mind death

mind death 
a death so cruel you are alive to experience it 
a death of the mental and spiritual body 
and the life of the brain and flesh 
the cruelest torture ever inflicted 
leaving you to parent your rebirthed self 
to tend to the etherian youve reformed 
to ictuate with your thoughts and intertwine them with others 
while still being left in vacivity 
an endless outer body pool you won’t stop drowning in 
the cruelest part of this death 
is you don’t even get to die 
i now no longer fear the loss of life 
for that is not death to me 
that is freedom