missing pieces

I was so kind to find that I have a little life in my tummy.I didn't mind I'd walk miles and miles in the sand at my feet my hands touching my tummy as I ran with joy knowing I have a baby on the way so excited.The day came finally after waiting and wanting you to be born so badly.Sadly when the day came upon us was so unexpectedly I was just shaken suddenly you were born quickly your heart beating I finally got to hold you in my arms as I embrace you and never let you go.The nurses to you away my soul faded away,envisioning what would be the darkest hours the darkest days I didn't know how I was going to feel from day to day I didn't know what to say. I cried alot they said you could go home then the doctors said you couldn't you got better for awhile but I couldn't hold you.So sad you were hooked with all kinds of wires and machines and we were in a place with all kinds of sick babies and some children it was a nightmare.Some passed on with god and his angels and some had miricales and were healed. Those poor families I know how they felt my heart went out to all the families. You lost your breath and were put on a ventilator for a while.Machines kept beeping and going off I was a nervous wreck didn't know if I was coming or going so many mixed emotions we were in the hospital for a long month of agony. I thought we were going to live there but I would of stayed with you by your side I never left your side. God decided to bring the angles to bring you up to heaven keep you under their wings. They healed your heart and kept you safe. The angels brought your soul back.As the piece's of life's puzzles were beginning to make sense again.