Moving

Your name burns like a red hot coal embedded in my throat
To love and to hold
Dissolve and be sold
You're not so safe any more

I bought a house with you 
We called it our love
A new house 
But already there were cracks in our walls
You tore them down in me
You made room for only love and  took out all the old things
So happy I didn't have room for the bad dreams 
We put mirrors up to reflect your light 
I had bones of glass 
And oh the beautiful colors they made with your light touching them 
I can still feel your fingertips now 
Little things started to tear at the seams
I couldn't feel the light 
Black clouds lingered on the ceilings
Lights flickered and then they went out 
I convinced myself you hadn't moved on and out 
It was only a short trip and you'd be back with more light

This was our house
Leaving wasn't a card I saw fall out of the deck
The Joker slaying the Queen of Hearts
Your promises now sound like bad jokes and I took every punchline to the heart 
Kiss my cheek before you hit it 
Slam my fingers in the door you close to leave me
Glass faces reflecting other smiles
I locked myself inside our house
Watched as weeds grew over our garden
My rib cage closed in and my heart closed up
Black tides drew nearer 
I left the bath running thinking I could wash away all the bad thoughts in me

I loved you 
And you spat me out like lukewarm milk
I made an ocean and you found an island
Could you have pretended to care just this once?
I dug holes for my mistakes to lay in
But I couldn't find any 
It was only you
Your words
Not your heart
I loved your heart
And watched your words tear me apart
I bound my own hands and let you cripple me 
I knew 
I knew all along 
That you'd slip through my fingers like sand through time

My ribs ache 
Triangles that break 
3 make a whole and now there is 1
I was one
You another
Our love the last
Now two have gone 
One is none 
Love can not stand without arms to hold
A body that's broken but with pain foretold