Mum I miss you still

Mum I miss you still
Mum I came home you were gone! Was told you had passed away.
I was young just twelve, I didn't know what to say.
In silence my pain, my hurt, an emptiness inside me grew,
Were you coming back I thought, but something inside me knew.
No! You were gone, gone forever, I wouldn't see you again.
No time to mourn or grieve, no one to console my pain.
I'm older now and nothing much has changed.
You're in my heart, you're in my soul, you're in my brain.
Mum I miss you still, it hurts my heart so much.
I want a kiss, a cuddle and feel a mothers touch.
I look around and see the bond, with daughters and their mum.
I'm jealous, I'm angry, I'm empty! I didn't get to have one.
I'm still grieving for you inside, it really makes me ill.
Mum I miss you, I miss you still.

By  April Price  2018