My broken heart

Every minute
Every day
Talking, texting, calling and visiting
I find myself more and more
Helpless to you
And I am terrified
Scared you will hurt me
You say it's not your intention
I want to believe you..
But when you eventually steal my heart
My broken heart
I'm scared you'll see just how ugly
Just how broken it truly is
I'm scared you won't want it
You'll be too hesitant to touch it
You'll see the old tape
The crusted glue
You'll see it is fragile
And how it falls apart
How it rips and Tears
And crumbles in your hands
I'm scared you'll reject it
And even if you want it
You may try and fix it
But I don't expect you to
I'll ask you to leave it be
Because as it's guardian
I have failed to protect it
And it is not your job
To repair what I have let break
What I have so carelessly
So freely given away
So every minute
Everyday
I bide my time
I hold my breath
As you get closer and closer
Navigating the fortress I have built
I only pray
That when you reach my broken heart
You don't reject it
But love it in all it's cracked beauty
That you accept it for how it is
And that you don't try and fix it