Scars

My arms, My legs
My face, My neck
My torso
Covered
These scars grown on my body
Permanent reminders
Reminders of my past
My failures
My mistakes
Everytime I wasn’t enough
Wasn’t strong enough
Wasn’t pretty enough
Wasn’t good enough
These scars
My reminders
Ugly and bold
Carved to my bone
My past written on my body
A violent testimony
Everytime I lied through my teeth
“I’m okay”
“I’m fine”
“It doesn't hurt”
These scars the truth to my lies
Snitching 
To anyone brave enough to listen
My abuse
My trauma
My scars a constant reminder
A nightmare I live everyday
My scars dismissed by most
Dismissed by me
They’re accidents
He didn’t mean it
It’ll never happen again
I’m sorry
Every scar
Every memory
Just an line on my body
A map to who I am
To what makes me
These scars
Ugly
Like old gnarly roots
A weed I can’t remove
Described as flowers
My survival
But I truly did not survive
These scars
The things I can never forget
Nothing to the passersby in my life
Nothing to those who come and go
Just a story to share over drinks
To laugh about
But cry deep alone in my thoughts
My scars
My bane
My reminders
Permanent to my body
These scars I wish so desperately
To remove
Because maybe
For them to come off my skin
Like scrubbing marker off a wall
The memories attached
Will wash away too