For My Dead Brother

I know that there will never be flowers as pretty as the ones that were on your casket and I have to take cold showers now because I don’t want to be as hot as the summer that you died and I can’t look at brown eyes and think they were ever as beautiful as yours and every other laughs I hear now seem so much emptier than yours and I didn’t even believe in angels but I believed in you and I’m so sorry that you have to watch us all fall apart from wherever you are to see you kept us all together. I’m so sorry this happened to you and I’m so sorry you had to leave but I’ve never needed you to be my big brother more than now.