My dedication is dead

For a long time, it has remained unfed,
and now my dedication is dead.
If I am honest there were days I heard it call,
to remind me of its impending fall.
For the many years, we were together,
my first and last thought of the day,
my whole life was structured in this way.

But then a new friend apathy came along 
and sung a much more appealing song.
Taking me away from my old friend,
who battled and fought until the end.
At the time I did not see or care,
I had a new friend in town who was always there.
Always by my side to feed and please me,
he brought shiny and new and would often tease me.

But looking back I now see
apathy was no real friend to me
He was there just to pretend,
I have now figured it out,
only to separate me from my friend.

Now that my beloved dedication is dead,
I am at a loss of what to do instead.