My elegy

I wonder if ppl can see the pain in my eyes & the hurt in my heart?
I wish I could fix myself but in order to do that I must take myself apart. 
It’s sad that the last memories of u are when u kicked me out. 
A scream & a shout was what I was all about. 
But instead I gave u a hug goodbye,
I tried not to breakdown & I didn’t know if I would cry,
Because I did it so frequently lately. 
Even though we lived together I missed u so greatly,
Because u had already fallen out of love with me,
U hated me. 
U just wanted to be free,
Is what u said to me.
The kind of pain I felt that day I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy. 
If only u would have shown a little empathy,
And not given up on me so easily. 
So now I’m here writing this elegy,
Because it’s my only remedy. 
I will always feel something towards u even after all this time. 
I wish u happiness & everything I couldn’t give u now that ur not mine. 
So this is it I’m giving in,
Since this is the end,
I’m burying my feelings deep down inside,
Where only they can hide. 
And even though u committed homicide,
All I can say is that I tried.