My experience at Thames House Mental Health Unit

As the months went by I started to cry
but I didn't do it in front of anyone
because I was worried about my pride.

I started on Kingfisher Ward as I came from a higher secure
but as the days went by I became really insecure.

I was on an anti-psychotic called clozapine and that was a pill
but when I took myself off it I became really psychotically ill.

I ended up kicking off and going real mad
I ended up hurting a staff member real bad.

because of that incident I ended up in seclusion and that's a locked room
I really thought I wasn't getting out of there that soon.

When I came out
I went into intensive care unit then I felt like my life was on hold
where I lay in my new room where it was cold.

After a while I came out onto Kestrel ward and that felt strange
and I did feel like I needed to change.
It didn't sink in for a couple of years because I would kick off to a certain extent
so staff had to jump in to prevent.

In 2016 I found out my mum had a heart attack
I was in shock and I didn't know how to react,
I thought she was going to die 
because it could of happened that's not a lie.

Over the past 3 years since I have been here I've been back and fourth from ward to ward
all I want to do now is settle down and study so I can get some more art awards.

Up until now I've had a crap life because I've been in and out of jail, abused by my dad and granddad and locked up for 10 and a half years in a mental health unit
now I have seen the light I don't want to ruin it.