For my Grandad in Heaven

Its that time of year again
When i was left with a broken heart, 
cos the angels decided they needed you
And you had to depart.
The pain i felt those years ago
Is nothing compared to today,
Im older and wiser than i was
But i wanted you to stay
I know im being selfish
Cos your now not in pain,
But i need you more than ever
My loss is the angels gain
I cant help feeling like this
Thinking of you makes me sad
Ive had signs your beside me
But i need an obvious one dear Grandad
Something i know thats really you
Something no one else would know,
A little something from you to me
I need you to let it show
I hope the angels know what they have
And that that their looking after you,
But one thing i can say for certain
Is they'll never love you like i do
I know you'll be waiting for me
As i reach the golden gate,
With a cuddle and a smile
But for now i'll have to wait
It was you who sent me the message
You'll know which one i mean,
Would you still have sent it
If the outcome you had seen
That outcome wouldnt have happened
If you were still around,
You wouldve stood beside me
And helped me stand my ground
I think about that a lot, you know?
And always wonder what if? 
But im trying to remember the good times
Then comes April the Fifth
It wouldve been your birthday
But you'll celebrate up above
As much as i wish you were here
I send my you unconditional love
Im gonna sign off for now
No doubt i'll write another next year
Next time your close by
Let me know that your near
I miss you so much and i
Love you even more
Help me close tight the old one
And open up that new door
Tell the others i said Hello
My thoughts are with them too
I just want to say dear Grandad
Thank you for being you xxxxx