My heart

A single star keeps me company in this moonless night, my heart gives one last fight to search for you to re ignite what has died , trying to give his last battle still refusing to accept your no longer here that your betrayal was just a dream , he fights convincing the brain to bring back memories. Of a distant past he tries to fill me with joy saying all will be good if we just find you , but deep down he knows .is a losing battle for he alone has endured so much pain . Almost dying but his hope was always high . he prevented me from crying just incase you came back you saw me happy he manage to erase all bad thoughts against you and only kept memories and your beauty. .. Your eyes your smile ...
still refusing to believe all is gone even tho his pain is huge he still fights in hopes you come back and heal him , who would of guessed. The one thing you almost destroyed still wants you .. How to tell my heart nothing will change that he will never feel your heartbeat again that the connection we once had vanished with you . how to stop his false hope if he truly believes you will come back. How can i stop him he is just hurting himself. Bleeding for someone that wont come , days turn to weeks and weeks into months and he still wakes up joyful believing today will be the day he will feel your embrace. How to stop him from hurting himself if my mind feeds him images of hope images of the past another silent night and i feel his pain as we lay to sleep i hear his tears all his fears coming true he cant help but give out pain as tears flow out . im powerless to stop his love .to stop what he wants i cant stop his pain .. I just pray he will survive and smile once more......