My Mind

It’s been about 2 weeks since I’ve gotten any sleep
The nightmares, the pain, the terror, they cause me to cry and weep
This shit is causing me to be someone I’m not
Who I really am I seem to have forgot
The exhaustion comes and attacks me
Makes me question my sanity
My every move, my every word
My actions and my speech has become so absurd
I walk around like I’m dead
Because when the sun goes down, thoughts run through my head
I can’t shake the tremors 
I can’t escape the rumors
But yet again, I can’t shut my eyes
So how do I really know what’s the truth and what’s lies?
I just want to lay down and drift off into a nice dream
But every hour or two I’m sitting up and I just want to scream
Let me sleep, please, I’m begging you
It’s sad when your own mind is your own demon and you don’t know what to do
You try and try to get some rest 
And your mind just won’t stop, sometimes I feel cursed instead of blessed
I just want to sleep please
I need everything to go away so I can finally get some peace

October 2021
Stephanie Davis