My mindless words

So hard to understand

Anything about this nomad land

Of explanation

A sensation I can't feel

Because everything is just so unreal

To me, and this skin i call home

Everything is just unknown

 And I'm in such an unnatural space

Underestimated by my race

My mind status

And the way I act out in what way I feel is normal

Because truthfully, my mind can't think the way you think

And I think

Maybe it's you that's unnaturally stablized

In so many twisted lies

Just as my mind is confined right now at this point and time

Which brings me back to my first lines

Is it you or is it me?

That seem to be so traumatically 

Traumatized 

Idolized?

Criticized?

Why must my mind be so full at times 

That words don't come out right 

I guess I might

Be so caught Up in my emotions

My mind is just overflowing with these thoughts as big as an ocean

Causing erosion or maybe even an explosion

Just to relieve my soul 

From committing something so deep so old

Thought back into the pit of my stomach

That I can't even stomach it

So I write these words to encourage myself

To let myself know i don't need help

Maybe just the time to relieve myself

To the deepest affections within my self

Hell

I told myself I would never write this way

But today seems to be the day 

That everything comes out with sense and fluidness

Until my thoughts regress

And maybe then you'll see me at my best