My writing

The best way to express what I feel is by writing,
So here it goes with all my words rhyming. 

I run away from what I feel,
I don’t believe in love anymore & that’s something I conceal.
I’m done with everyone, it’s just an ordeal,
Like a bad dream that’s surreal. 
What I feel I just wanna kill & begin to heal. 

We started off strong!
So where did I go wrong?
I guess far away from u is where I belong all along. 
I’m so messed up, I’m so afraid of commitment,
I gave u my all, I gave u my limit. 
U broke my spirit when u forgot all about me in a minute. 

U had my heart to hold,
It used to be warm but now u made it cold.
I’m numb & I’m not consoled. 
I’m tired of this emotional torture. 
I’m seeking out a sure cure. 
I can’t help to wonder what happened to our spark?
Broken promises & selfishness then u just left me in the dark. 
U didn’t leave me with anything but a question mark?

Every night I lie awake,
Thinking of all my mistakes I once did take. 
Going over my every move,
That I wish I could remove,
But now it’s too late, I have to learn from this & improve.

Tears stream down my cheek,
I feel like an outcast, I feel like a freak.
Sometimes I get down on my knees pleading,
My heart can’t take much more bleeding. 
I just don’t understand,
How u can say you’ll love a man for a lifespan
And walk by me & hold my hand
But then in a instant,
U became so distant. 
Guess ur so called love for me never grew
And that’s why u found someone new. 
I’ll never forget what u put me through,
Without a heads up or even a clue,
U had me like an emotional roller coaster, with a lot of ups, downs 
And turn arounds.

I’m almost done writing, getting this off my chest,
Putting all these feelings to rest for the best. 
Now that u know how I feel,
U hold the cards in ur hands & it’s time to deal. 
Good luck & I hope u do what u feel is right & true
Because now the rest is up to u.....