Nessessary Pain

This woman I adore love so profound  
She is beautiful but my end I think I've found
Lies and deceit but not for sure wish I could be certain and know without a doubt but either way with her i can not be without I'm by her side but it seems something deep she hides there has been alot of pain for sure but I belive it is nessessary for me to endure
In my wide romantic vision she is sometimes a blind spot when rocky hang on for the ride then it subsides then dies and again revived I know she is a source of trouble but I love her she tampers with my feelings breaks the emotional balance and I'm in awe but when we are together I feel ten feet tall I can't understand this woman but she is the one if she leaves me than I'll be done she is wonderful exactly what I want but at times we clash and she likes to taunt she is the source of inspiration she has my full dedication but the walls are built tough but I will never stop working on us because I can't get enough I think she is a real angel 
When I am not anymore alive she would breathe life into my soul these feelings out of my control 
But does she want what I want that I do not know as much as I hope so sometimes just feels so cold she is a romantic genius drives me crazy with love you want it you got it with reasonable means no matter what though she is my queen crown me the king but for some irrational reasons I get unseated from the throne then here I am again lonely on a lonely roam I want you fully as my own I want you in every way as I feel ive shown just tiered of being overthrown over the years yes we have grown but the unstable differences drive me a mad man I love her but her love for me seems out of reach I have no strength to stand this as I've tried for so long my moral fiber has been weakened I try to stay strong this woman gently tears me down like I'm always wrong she is a mixture of many things good aswell as bad but without her i wouldn't be right in her i do see a dim light waiting to be bright she is my life and one day she will be my wife It is a pleasure to be with her because she is a necessary pain.