The New Me

Crushing rain,

Devastating strain,

All we can do is fight

To save what’s left of our light.
 

I apologize,

Even though they are all lies,

Pencil is wrapped in chains,

Breaking under the strain.
 

Cry myself to sleep,

All I do is cry and weep,

Life full of devastation,

Relying on sedation.
 

The fights in my brain,

All drive me insane,

Depressed and desolate of soul,

Just rotting in a dark hole.
 

Skeptical beliefs,

Unrealistic reliefs,

What draws me there?

Why do I care?
 

Strip off the rotting flesh,

And try to start fresh,

Forget the scars

And come closer to the stars.
 

This is the new me,

For everyone to see,

Dressed in black,

And replacing everything I lack.
 

No longer pushed by a force,

Time to find my own course,

Accept the heartbreak

And all those who just take.
 

No more lies,

Just to seem wise,

No more being a stranger,

And this time, I know the danger.