New School

My alarm clock rings waking me up

It is the first day of middle school for me at this new school

Over Christmas my world was turned upside down and the world I new was gone

I had no clue what to expect but I hoped it would all turn out good

But the world works in mysterious way and almost never goes your way

As I would soon find out with a painful lesson

As I walked in the door to the office they seemed nice, nicer then my last school but they would turn out to be worst

After they showed me to my locker and then to my classes I thought I would like the school

But after the bell sounded to end first I met my fist problem

As I am at my locker a girl walks up and started talking to me, she was very pretty and smelled of the sweetest fruits

As we were talking her boyfriend shows up all mad at me, he accused me of trying to steal his girl

As I tried to explain it was just an innocent conversation he pulled something from his pocket and stabbed me in the side

I didn't know what it was until I went to the bathroom and saw it had been a knife, he had missed my lung and had hit a rib

I did not think about going to the office or telling anyone, I was in to much shock over what happened

From then on things got worst, kids shoved me in my locker and closed it, I kept on being stabbed with stuff

It was getting worst by the day and I had no clue how to stop it

One day I finally broke and kid tried to stab me, so I took his arm and smashed it into a wall

He dropped his knife and tried to punch me, I then kicked his knee cap hard as I could and broke it

I then head butted him and then stated to punch the brick wall hard as I could

When my knuckle were bloody I started to write in my own bloody, it wasn't until I was in the office I realized I had cracked

I had become insane and was worried that I was in deep trouble

Well I was given three months of lunch and after school detention for defending myself

All this happened with in my first month there

And it kept on happening, but I never broke again

I turned to other ways to handle my pain and sorrow

Way I wished I never used for they cut deep into me

Not only was I cut from school but also from my own hand

Though my life is still not right at school

I do not hurt myself for I have found God

Instead of hurting myself I pray that thing will get better

I will be the first one to say I do sometimes get to depressed and do stray from him

Like my last school poems says I tried suicide, and I still think of it some times

But I try not tom I try to focuses on God, but I am human and make mistakes and sometimes think he doesn't care about me

But then I read his word and remember it will get better at some point

I just hope I do not die by a school mates hands C(ich bin ganze allien)