Nightmare

Am I dead?!
Is there a reason your not answering
Me besides in my head?!
Your name keeps a Taunted me
Words are remained unsaid
Phone calls not returning 
Text messages left on read
Am I dead 
Sliding out my bed looking at my feet
But feeling nothing instead
Am I dead?!
Can ghost actually dream 
Cus all I see is you and the baby in my head
Am I dead
I call out your name
But I hear silence instead
No notifications no text no calls
Fuck am I worried or sad
Gun sitting on my dresser
Thinking on pulling it
But I already feel like I’m dead
I’m empty you took all you had from me
Thought I was playing when I said I loved you
And u just took and left me
No answers no explanation 
No thoughts no concentration
Tf going through your mind
Are you hurt
Or protecting me
Are you pregnant 
Are you lying
What is it that I can’t see!!!!!
Am I dead?!
Wake me up
Take your name out my head
How could u leave me stranded
And take bets on my head
Who tf are you?!
What happened
I can help you out this pace
Are u scared?!
Answer me tell me now
Is this real or
Am I dead