NO FAREWELL

He had to leave before me

With all his thoughts and fears unknown.

But he left me holding memories that I`m very proud to own.

He was asleep! so farewell words went unspoken

So we couldn`t say goodbye.

He had gone before I knew it

Now only God knows how much I cry.

I`ve now got a soul that aches with sadness

All my tears in secret flow.

The pain I feel having lost him

Is something nobody will ever know.

Just to hear his voice and see him smile!

Or to sit and cuddle him close for a little while

If only it could be that same old way!

This simple thing Lord! is my only wish! this lonely day.

So fresh white Lillies I`m sending you

I`m sorry but they`re sprinkled with tears! instead of fresh morning dew!

Please look in the centre for my Forget-Me-Nots

They`re to tell him that he`ll never be forgot.

Even as the sunshine passes over me

I`m still in shadows and my tears still fall

But now my only comfort!

Is I know my love and devotion will outlast them all.

Lord` you called him so gently

That only he could hear.

And nobody heard the silent steps

Of your angels drawing near.

Softly from distant shadows

His name you quietly called!

Then he closed his eyes and went to sleep.

But here, in place of my heart!

Is now, just a great big sad and lonely hole.

Lord` when he was born, I made a vow to you

That nothing could us part.

And I know you had to call his name!

But Lord! it`s torn my whole world apart.

I still smile and joke with everyone

And a cheerful smile I try to keep.

But I have to release great tears of pain from my broken soul

While other`s are fast asleep.

My son and I in life together

Climbed many mountains and many hills.

We crossed great rivers wide.

Back then to me, everything meant so much more

Because my son was by my side.

For my son Andrew

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I love you sweety xx