No Good Byes

I wasn't there the day my heart died,
You left, with no good bye
Left me with all the what ifs, and maybes
Just gone, into the sky
You were my heart and my soul 
You tore me down and a I pushed back
Blood on my hands, throw them up in the sky
I became a number one sinner no less
My life was a lie and my wish was a death
To numb it all away 
I fell in love with the sins of the world
The money,the booze and the drugs 
I couldn't stay faithful if I tried
I'd turn into a devil you could see it in my eyes
I'm a broken woman, I'm full of sin
I'm sick of all this hell that I'm livin' in
I can't escape it 
Even when you try to numb the pain with a thousand pills