No good to nobody...

Once I was a young boy becoming a man, with youth on my side,
Once was a full life ahead, future of wonder, with a beautiful mind,
Once I had a kind soul, I suppose I still have, but dont accept it,
Now I know, I'm a mess, time to restart because I won't give in.

I've let myself go, in the name of being alone,
I'm no use to anybody,
I've let myself go,
I can't find a somebody,
I've let myself go,
I'm no good to nobody,
I'm just no good to nobody...

7 years has passed since seperated, I don't even know if I've ever loved before,
I can't even remember the feeling that I so hated, words on paper are a pathetic law,
It's been cold at night, talking to my pillow, feelings are a tearful echo,
Troubled mind, I'm an obese size, I just can't see a euphoric tomorrow.

Washed up, drenched in pain, withering away day by day,
One day I'm happy, other days I'm sad, I'm in mental disarray,
I bury myself in my emotions, sometimes my soul can't even take,
I'm part of a story, a story that ends in lonely heartache,

Is it much easier this way?

I've let myself go, in the name of being alone,
I'm no use to anybody,
I've let myself go,
I can't find a somebody,
I've let myself go,
I'm no good to nobody,
I'm just no good to nobody...

Is this the sign of the times?
Is this the sign of an old mind?
My body weighs a poetic ryhme,
Page after page, line after line,
I just know, I'm a bit of a low life.

The souls I burn, I gather like pearls, I'm drowning in the ocean, love is a deadly curse,
To swim in one's soul, let the air bubbles make me float, love is like an electronic surge,
To softly touch your lips, to undress that red silk, I'll kiss your goosepimples away,
Warm to the touch, your neck like a rush, I'll stroke my hands between your shoulder blades,
I know how a woman feels,
I hear her body.

Does the weak not understand?

Surely all women need this?

How do nice guys finish last?

After all this,
My walls are there,
I don't want them to be,
But history is a tortured layer.

So...
Is it much easier this way?
Because I'm just no good,
No good to nobody...