No longer

The positive is clear, no negative in sight. Fear devoured me, I can no longer fight. You didn't care as you don't feel, was this even love, was it even real? 
The negative is clear, the positive no longer.  So why do I feel empty instead off feeling stronger?
Weeks go by and I lash out at my beloved, 
but you're no longer mine, yet you're the only one I trusted.
As I begin to cope, and slowly start glowing,
the seed was always planted and the signs start showing. 
I felt a belonging, I felt relied upon. But along came the day when all that was gone. Today has been marked by the blood off you, I'm so sorry you couldn't stay- if only you knew.
I would off loved you and gave you all my heart, 
but instead you left,
leaving me broken,
and torn apart.