No Vacancy

The woven blanket underneath my back
Leaves harsh little dents against my pale skin
Serves me right for being thin

I watch the blurry screen which looks like the news
And I can't help but think I could've been more
Like this woman reporter, like that's a chore

She has no idea who's watching her
Someone like me
5 bucks in her bra, desperate for some D

My cracked white walls
Remind me of my life
Used to be pure; someones wife

But time took it's toll
Life was not fair
There went my looks and my long brown hair

My children left first
Nothing much to my name
I carried but Jack Daniels and a bucket of shame

An eager knock on the door
Always leaves me uneasy
Quick shots of vodka, they love it a bit sleezy

I tremble towards the door in my scratched up heels
I gesture him in with a sad smirk on my face
This one likes it fast, he can't keep pace

His filty hands tug on my breast
A little shriek first
Then he arupts with a burst

This creature of a man
Waddles out the door
Throwing green all over the floor

Numb comes to mind
But i'm used to not feeling
Live next to the pain and never begin healing

E.T.