NOBODY KNOWS

Nobody knows what they have got

Till they don`t have it anymore.

My son gave me many pleasures in life

Gifts both great and small.

But most importantly he gave me his love

The most beautiful gift of all.

A sparkling light has been snuffed out of my life

Oh what I`d give to see it shine.

But all I have now are memories of the life we had when he was mine.

Nobody knows the treasures they`ve got

Until they`re snatched from your grasp and you can`t hold them anymore

As into hell you descend and pure misery walks through your door.

Everyone loves the sunshine

But I just need the rain.

Because in the sun I can`t hide my tears

Now that I know he won`t be coming home to me ever again.

Cancer took him from me

There was no second chance!

Now I`ll never easily smile.

I was so happy with him at my side but this pain is now so hard to hide.

What do I do now that he`s gone?

Where do I go from here?

My world was such a joy

But now it`s just filled with all my tears.

They say that time is a healer!

But how can that be?

He`s gone and it`s left a huge hole where my heart and soul used to be!

The impression I give to the world is sadly just a big pack of lies!

The smile on my face is a front

It`s just one great big disguise.

I miss his beautiful smile

And the cheeky way he used to wink.

I took my happiness for granted

Now it just tears me apart just trying to think.

This pain is never ending

I really don`t want to be here.

Mums kiss is supposed to make things all better!

But I can no longer do that because he`s no longer near.

Now all I have are words on paper

A therapy spread thin!

But I`m not ill and I don`t need a doctor

Please Lord I just need him.

G xx