Noise

Noise
What is that noise it pounds on my ears
Please make it stop
can’t you hear it
So loud so clear the sound is pure but not the message it’s not that clear
Make it stop it clouds my mind I can’t accomplish a thing because I only hear the noise
Why can’t I stop it or figure out where it comes from
Pillows or fingers don’t work
I can’t sleep very long the noise wakes me
Why don’t you hear it why only me?
Can’t someone help me
I guess it’s up to me
Wait I’m getting to understand some of the noise
Words are trying to come through
I remember that, I did that? I forgot I did that. I hated I did that
I don’t want to remember that, yes I made that mistake, I should have done that but I didn’t for some odd reason but can’t remember why
I remember her and him and them, why did he go so soon
O my God the noise is my hidden memories
All my mistakes
All my loved ones gone
Failures, and more failures with a topping of disappointments
Now I don’t want to get out of bed
Please leave me alone
Bring back the noise
                                                                                                                                      Jack Bellis
                                                                                                                                          7/27/2017