Not mine

If I ever have what I want
I would be so free 
Someone to watch me
Someone to spellbind me

The luckiest, the happiest, the most replete.
It has found me and I thought gone forever.
I cannot share this 
I should not dare it
I am afraid of it but crave will not leave me alone.

I must let it die away
I must let it go
It is not right
It is not for me it seems

I continue and long for whatever is mine.