Not once

Not once did it look like you'd cared.
Not once did you ask if i was okay.
Not once did it seem like you were still in love with me.
It looked like you lost intrest so quickly.
Not once did you answer a single phone call or text message.
You just vanished.
Did i ever cross your mind? 
Back then when my mama dropped you off.
She saw a girl walking towards you. 
And after all this time you did a very great job pretending that you still loved me.
This wouldn't be the first time you cheated on me.
Remember that girl from Washington, Canada. 
Yeah her the girl you were in love with before you met me and during our so called "relationship".
I truted you with everything i had.
And yet you keep letting me down over and over again.
Not once have you told me you loved me in the past 2 weeks.
Not only have you bailed on me 4 times you did it 8 times.
I did everything for you. 
And i still get tossed to the side of the road just to show your friends that you're a so called "pimp".
I was just side candy.
We talked about our fucking future together. 
Was that a lie too?
I wanted you for the rest of my days but i guess you didn't. 
Was i to ugly?
To fat?
To stupid?
Where did i go wrong?
I have never been enough to anyone. 
I told you i never trusted anyone.
And you just throw it all away.
It went from me crying once a month.
Now its crying myself to sleep every night.
Because of you i will now stay far away from the so callled word "love"
I found it hard to trust you, but not just you but everyone around me.
And because of you i am afraid.
Because of you i don't know how to let anyone else in.
And because of you i am afraid that i will never be good enough.
Want to know how i got these scars?
I got them from learning my mistakes. 
And you just so happened to be one of them.