old friend
(all along)
old friend
you were right then
you were always right, all along and
here once again
it’s me, the one who is calling to apologise
leaving for you this stupid message
you're never going to hear
it's always been like this
between you and me
in spite those little fights and
those silly arguments
we always talked again
we did it for the good times and
those not so good ones, you and I
always shared
you were right then
when you said that I would miss you
if you ever went away
silence has been now too long and
there is no point in telling either
what you already know, but
I missed my stop
I missed my train
I missed the chance to fix things back then
now you have gone and
I am here all messed up
without you
I am here sad and alone
missing you
once again
I keep your number in my phone
messages and pictures, all along
as I don’t really want to say goodbye
to you
yes, I keep your name and your number in my phone
messages and pictures, all along
as I don’t really have the strength to say goodbye
to you
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Wow! This is a truly heartfelt write! It is a brutal reality check. It is the flip side of love. It is the sudden loss that death delivers. It is the feeling of loneliness. It is regret. It is any and all of these. Wonderfully worded. I hope it is all creative and is not for real. If it IS real, then I am sorry you are hurting and I hope your heart heals x
Hello Being Me
Thank you for your kind message.
His name was Lindsay. I learned through another friend that he had liver cancer. The very next day I called him and I went to see him in person. He was very thin as the cancer had progressed quickly. We made peace, we had tea, we talked about life and some poetry. We cuddled before I left his flat. He didn't replied my messages neither answered my calls anymore, two months later I received an invitation to assist to his funeral. He died literally two streets around the corner of where I live. He only allowed two friends, very close friends of him, to assist him. They said he went in peace. I had the fortune to be his friend for 5 yeas maybe, and it's maybe 5 years since he parted (I am terrible with keeping track of events in time). Every now and I again I stumble with his memory, especially because I have the habit of going through my messages trying to reply those still pending. I say stumble because it is literally like that, as you look back to see that thing that make you stumble and you rub with your hands there, where it still hurts, then you smile because silly you didn't notice the obvious. We made peace, he went in peace, and I do miss him, I miss not being able to call his number in my phone.
Love BeingMe, much of it.
edwin toninho
I am so sorry to hear that, Edwin. The loss of someone so close is a difficult one to bear. I am glad you had made your peace, he must have valued your friendship greatly. Bless you x
Thank you BeingMe
I kind heart is worth following, you have me at your wake.